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I've said it before and I'll say it again. One of the most refreshing things in this blog is to sense that Frank is able to use his money to live a high quality life, unlike the person of the video in this post's links.
The ex-owner of Paypal presents clear signs of serious psychological imbalance. I am sorry for him. His excessive competitiveness doesn't allow him to enjoy the present moment, thus he cannot enjoy life. That's why he feels sad when he is not busy.
I know what's to feel that push forward that he feels, because I am (was?) similar. I spent 10 years of my life being dominated by it. Now I fight against it, trying to live a healthier and more balanced life. And I feel better than ever.
What's all the money doing for that person? Nothing. He is not even spending it in a good chair and a good desk, for what we can see in that video. He is not unpacking his things. And he presents in his body language many clear signs of stress, although he appears calm. Isn't it odd? He seems to be very stressed out and letting his life -and possibly partner- slip away. He is not able to disconnect from his urge to win. It is just that this is not an urge to win, but just to compete. And the competition is against himself, so he can never win.
He feels he has to prove something. His life is dominated by others, and by what others think of him. His self esteem depends on the outside world.
If he is not "producing" he feels he is not doing anything useful. He works 15 hours a day or more. Once he sold his company, he felt worthless.
I am sorry for him. He should look for help as soon as possible.
Of course many of us will say -particularly thos of us that are like him and me- "what the hell do you know Javier, he is free to live his life in any way he wants!" and it is true...as long as he is happy. But he doesn't seem happy at all. Id' bet he is not. Frank seems much happier and more balanced than him. I strive to be a more balanced person myself.
There is a time when you lose contact with reality. When you cannot enjoy the smell of a flower anymore, or the beauty of a sunset...you just are here physically but you are already somewhere else mentally. Always somewhere else. Never in the present. Never really being where you are. Never enjoying quality time. You have lost perspective. It is hard for you to laugh at yourself, and at how ridiculous things can be sometimes. You are too busy for that.
He feels he hasn't learnt anything if he doesn't sell his next company for more money than the last one. But with the next company he won't be happy either, we all know that.
He only feels alive when he is working, because that disctracts him from the things he feels are wrong...it distracts him from the voice of the father critic inside him that whispers all the time behind his ear "you are not good enough".
He is looking for fulfillment in the wrong places. The best thing that can happen to him is something that brings him back to reality fast. At the moment, the only thing that differentiates him from a robot are his biological functions.
There is a time to compete. There is a time to stop. There is a time just be, and love yourself and the people that loves you because you are you, not because you sold paypal for 1.X billion. And there is a time to appreciate your life, your health, the air you breath, the food you eat and the fact that the sun came up the horizon one more day.
In one hand I admire such a strong drive in a person, and this guy's technical knowledge is clearly outstanding. But has he learn anything about life itself during his 33(?) years? I hope he does soon, otherwise he'll end up like the many of our generation (I am 32)...extremely rich...extremely lonely...extremely empty.
I hope he changes before that happens and stop making wealthy and happy everyone around him...except himself.
Regards,
Javier Marti
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